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2009-12-01T20:57:00.003+08:00

It is december
and school is gonna open soon.
some how i feel sad and happy at the same time.
sad that holidays are going to be over in a month time
happy that i get to see my friends and get out of my lazy bum state.

3f '09 .. not really that exciting i can say..
well, there are some memories that i will keep it with me in my heart.
and of course there are bad times..
there are many conflicts in my life this year, and i wish to forget them
but of course, sec 1 was the worst of all my 3 secondary years.

next year 3f '09 won't be a class of 37 but class of 26...
pathetic isn't it?
and it won't be 4f '10 but 4j '10? or 4k?
boo hoo

Keep Me Away From My Blues Please!

2009-11-03T18:57:00.003+08:00

Tristan x)

Life's kinda boring now days..
how i really wish for something unexpected to happen.
i just have too many wishes to accomplish
and too many hopes to look forward to..

i 've been slogging at home
spending my precious hrs infront of the comp screen
in between hours sleeping and eating
or maybe getting scolded by my mum.
school... oh yeah. school...
how can i forget about school..
there school this week and next week.
which sucks really alot.
our holidays are becoming our nightmares
that we didn't look forward to
as there will always be piles and piles of homework
waiting for us to entertain them or maybe vandalise on them.
how horrible can our holidays get?
fairfield's reputation is really going down.
going down fast.
it sucks alot to be in this school...
nothing interesting happens at all D:
some how i really wanna have a funfair in sch again soon!
miss those times where we used to bond together setting up our stalls.
hahas getting paint all over us.
going home late! FTW

boos.
nth to do D:
wanna chat with people but...
all of them are busy :\
maybe i should just return to my audi-ing again
and get my new set of panda eyes soon (:

extra entertainment for u guys
a pic of Tristan in a box.
when i was going to put him inside
his legs started to shiver really really bad.
[no animal was hurt or injured!]

peek a boo who's there?

TRISTAN

2009-11-01T22:55:00.006+08:00

sry for the last post
had to delete it cause of the over vulgarities
can't stand it to be posted in my blog -w-

woosh
exams are over
but! there are still homework for us
oh manns..

next yr would be crap for my class..
26 people will be in my class
11 dropped out from my current class!
wanna cry..
4F is corrupted

well happy news :D
Tristan is here with me! x)
he has been with me since 23 oct
heres few pic of Tristan

pig

close up of pig

tongue!

say hi to Tristan!
he is 4
and a MALE
pure breed maltese x)
hehe.
love him to madness
even my mom does...
kinda didn't expected that to happen.
cause my mom is afraid of dogs u see..

later people~!
gota continue my audi-ing :3

PRAY HARD..

2009-10-06T20:50:00.004+08:00

wow.
finally blogger is ALRIGHT.

its been awhile since i touched blogger eh.
exams to be coming in 2 days time! ><

now i hate fridays....

i wish all students out there with exams clouding their mind
ALL THE BEST!
don't panick [i am panicking]
don't slack anymore![what am i doing now?]
don't sleep late![why am i still sleeping in class? guess i sleep late..]

...
...
...
all the best people.
good luck in every subject u will be doing!

dear lord, hear our prayers
i pray that u would listening to the loud thumping of our hearts
as exam are coming nearer and nearer as minutes passed..
and i hope u would give us wisdom to think properly
please make our worries go away
so as to let us think clearly lord.
i pray that this day u will come quietly in our hearts
to let us know that u are with us.
in the name of jesus i pray
amen.

2009-09-02T22:25:00.004+08:00

yo world~

currently using internet explorer to update my blog.

still having problem uploading pics :\

but at least i am able to change my fonts and colours.

today... kinda boring uh

cause sam didn't come to sch AGAIN.

i repeat AGAIN..............

she is getting the teachers pissed off D:

sam sam better not pon anymore.

teachers are gonna call u the "pon sch girl" soon.

==
ms mano: sam never come sch again?? [gives me the look, the popping eyes one]

mr liew: sam nvr come sch???[gives me the look and laughed and scribbles attendance in his book]

mrs oh: oleander sam nvr come to sch?

me: yeah.... [thinking as usual >.>]

mrs oh: she sick?

me: err.. no she have to attend funeral.

but at the end she didn't attend at all..

instead she fell asleep when she is supposed to go to sch ==

nice one sam [thumbs up]

she really is pro at sleeping xD

OVERsleeping =3=

Bad Bad day...

2009-08-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

somehow..
i just feel like everything is just going down.
am i just too braggy?

it makes me feel like everything is my fault.
seeing my friends in pain..
what can i really do to help them?
i tried to talk them out of it....
but it feels like i am just rubbing salt onto their wounds.

probably one of the worst day to be.

2009-08-29T15:04:00.001+08:00

a joke from my church

Husband: i don't get it why god created women so beautiful but stupid at the same time...

Wife: well, god created me beautiful so that u will be attracted to me. and god created me stupid so that i will be attracted to u :)

siighs... this evening i will be going to my aunt's house [dad's side]
craap... how i hate going there sooo extremely much.
i would rather starve to death then going there for the 7month dinner.
it is like.........
i don't even believe in that la.....[no offence to believers]
i was wishing to go sam's house today.
so that i can skip today's house visit.
but i called her many many many times and she didn't pick it up.
as usual la... everytime ignore my calls.
her phone is always on silent, please please get a house phone.
i don't wanna keep calling ur mum.
seriously... why do i even have those kind of relatives?
annoyed the moment i step into their house.
just feel like .... the food there isn't even nice!
zzz

2009-08-23T19:29:00.000+08:00

"Zhong Yu Yuan Wei" by Joe Cheng

Yang guang zhao liang shi jie que tao ya bu liao hei
Jiu xiang wo zen me wan mei ye dei ai shang shui

Ai qing yao kao gan jue xing fu kao zhi hui
Wo de xin que li suo dang ran wang ni sheng shang pian

Xi huan ni hai shi xi huan tao yan de hai shi tao yan
Zhe kou wei yi dan yang cheng jiu zhu ding hen nan gai bian

Xi huan de hai shi xi huan tao yan de hai shi tao yan
You xie shi ke yi tuo xie you xie shi jiu bi xu jue dui

Xi huan ni dan chun xi huan ni pa hei
Xi huan ni de que dian na me tao yan

ALL I WANT zhi shi xiang ai de bu xu wei bu xu wei

Xi huan de hai shi xi huan tao yan de hai shi tao yan
Bu xu yao qu zai hu shui
Rang zi ji zhong yu yuan wei

Xi huan de hai shi xi huan tao yan de hai shi tao yan
I LOVE WHAT I LOVE
I HATE WHAT I HATE

"Ni" by Ariel Lin
Feng qing qing
Wo ting jian ni sheng yin
Ni dui zhe wo ding ling
Yao zhu yi zi ji de xin qing
Yu qing qing
Wo ting jian ni sheng yin
Ni na zhe san kao jin
Wei wo zhe zhe feng dang zhe yu
Yi dian dian xiang ku qi yi
Dian dian xiang zhe ni
Ni de ai hen zhen xi
Wo zong yi lai zhe ni de ji yi

Ni jiu xiang feng zai shuo hua
Shun zhe wo fang xiang
Ni jiu xiang hai zhong de bo lang
Dui zhe wo cheng zhang
Wo ming bai ni de hui da
Wen rou de dui hua
Ai qing qi shi mei you ban fa
Bu bei gan dong ba
Ao bu shuo huang

Yi qing qing
Wo ting jian ni sheng yin
Ni na zhe san kao jin
Wei wo zhe zhe feng dang zhe yu
Yi dian dian xiang ku qi yi
Dian dian xiang zhe ni
Ni de ai hen zhen xi
Wo zong yi lai zhe ni de ji yi

Ni jiu xiang feng zai shuo hua
Shun zhe wo fang xiang
Ni jiu xiang hai zhong de bo lang
Dui zhe wo cheng zhang
Wo ming bai ni de hui da
Wen rou de dui hua
Ai qing qi shi mei you ban fa
Bu bei gan dong ba
Ao bu shuo huang

Ni jiu xiang feng zai shuo hua
Shun zhe wo fang xiang
Ni jiu xiang hai zhong de bo lang
Dui zhe wo cheng zhang
Ni de hui da
Wen rou de dui hua
Ai qing qi shi mei you ban fa
Bu bei gan dong ba
Ao bu shuo huang

2009-08-23T17:12:00.000+08:00

Boooo~
forget it.. not gonna wait for blogger to be fixed up.
now the lay out is like crap!
all the words are everywhere!

i am glad that all the misunderstanding between the girls are cleared.
hope that our friendship will still be the same.
but i can't say the same for our friendship with the guys...
we are kinda avoiding them cause of.. some misunderstanding.
sorry guys D:

just came back from the hairsalon and church.
found out that i layered my hair too much..
i can't tie a pony tail anymore ==
so i will have to go with two plaids tomorrow.
GOSH. how i wish i didn't have to D:
and...... she cut my fringe! D<
was kinda pissed off...
cause i didn't ask her to cut it, but she went to cut it!
omg.. need to wait for my fringe to grow again!

i am so addicted to a song "zhong yu yuan wei"
xD
joe cheng rocks! can't take my eyes off him O.O
naah i ain't dreaming about him.
just like his character in the drama TKA and ISWAK
cool, smart, handsome, tall, manly, understanding, sweet..etc
perfect man D: oh gosh....
gaaaaaah i wanna watch precious kiss!
quickly come out D:

2009-07-25T20:43:00.000+08:00

updating will be paused for awhile till blogger fixed itself up...
having many troubles with blogger and getting fed up with it.

pisssssssseed.

2009-07-16T20:17:00.004+08:00

i was just thinking about best friends..
even though things wouldn't last forver
they would die or disappear someday
we could only hope that it could last longer each day months years...
and pray with our hearts that it won't end each day.
realised that i have did so much things with sam (:
not to forget emilyn too.. x)
it is like we have done alot of things together.
swimming together
sleeping together on the same bed
staying overnight late
going overseas together
many many more.
even shared clothes?
my friendship with sam has started since sec 1?
i known her through the ncc kayaking competition.
hahas.. glad to have met her.
guys who let her go are fools.
going to be full 3 years since i met sam (:

tomorrow got e maths and chem test!
gosh! i failed my a maths and geog.
can't believe it...
can't believe i failed geog by a bloody damned half mark.
great work ole..

hope u can sleep well my dearies teddy bear..
dream good and sweetdreams
and not letting the tears to drown u in sadness
as i am always here for you if you need someone.
and don't ever hide away from me again...
gosh... why do i sound like a boyfriend? ==
i am straight!

2009-07-15T19:13:00.002+08:00

Hoois!
haven't been updating consistently (:
well! i am back (x

today sucked...
u know how it feels knowing that someone u love is sad.
while she tried to not let everyone knows that she is.
though she can't hide her sorrows away from me.
and i did not do anything to cheer her up.
all i did was to make sure that she knows i am not worrying.
cause you wouldn't wanna worry someone u love.
i tried my best though.
at the same time felt guilty.
knowing that she needs someone to be with her.
and i still could be cheerful infront of her.
shouldn't i be grabbing some guy's neck
and holding a knife infront of him?
or taking revenge of what someone done to her?
should i tell her to give up?
or.. or should i tell her to continue her fairytale world?
or slap her in the face and wake up [i won't]
or just lend her myself so that she could rumble out her disatisfactions.
or even cry her tears out.
or just be like a statue stoning staring at her ignoring her troubles?
i know she is grown up..
and she is not a person to show anyone her true feelings..
and she is not someone who is very open about herself.
but.. but she is yearning for someone to be there for her.
and i really want to be that person.
but i just don't know how to do it.
i was afraid that if i helped her...
i would only just makes matter worse...
i just wish for her to sleep peacefully every night.
and be happy of the decision she chose.
not to forget make sure she eats properly.
not eatin cup noodles every night.....

sleep well dearies..
make sure it is a good dream this time...
and please cry no more ):
remember i will always love u kays.

2009-07-11T13:14:00.002+08:00

kinda pissed now
just played audi with nithya and her friend.
her friend was getting on my nerves.
thinking that i was a hacker.
wtf is his problem.
just cause i won him
and my points were high and he thinks i hack?
lols.
then that means ur bro hacker luh.
loser sia.
he thought that i didnt know he was pming nit.
think i stupid arh.
thats mean everybody who more pro then me hacker luh.
ki siao.
this wasn't my first time being accused as hacker.
just cause i was using my cousin acc [level 6]
then my points was around 700k
one girl pm me say i hacker. wtf
i told her "don't believe me go and save and check for urself"
then she just kept quiet and exited.

auurgh..
sometimes audi can get on my nerves.
now days whenever i play audi
i will keep dc-ing.
[not in the mood now]

2009-07-03T19:32:00.003+08:00

i made an oath to commit myself to textbooks and worksheets till the major test is over.
that means lesser computer time and lesser play time.
last few days have been seriously studying

i tell myself to buck up this semester.
i even gave up my fun time to watch movie with the guys and sam today
and went home straight to study my a maths.
some how i dont find it boring.
i find it the opposite way [fun]

good luck for the major test :D

2009-07-01T19:23:00.003+08:00

OH.
i forgotten to mention.
today is the 1st july.
WHICH IS NIGEL'S BIRTHDAY.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGEL!

N-ot a person to mess with.
I-rresitable cute
G-ood boy >.>
E-xtra extra hardwoking. on games only
L-amer who like to fake people.

2009-07-01T19:18:00.002+08:00

Today i didnt go school.
currently wearing a mask everywhere i go.
having fever and flu symptoms.
NO H1N1!
dont curse me.

u know everytime i post.
i would put a picture on my post?
sometimes is pictured my mood.
or it would be something i wanna talk about.
but this time i have no idea why blogger dont let me
post a picture. >3

this time. or rather my first time.
i am going to talk about my dream i had last night.
it was a kinda cool dream.
i was with some one which i dont remember.
i saw this very cool ice cream shop.
we were passed a plain ice cream
and a palate with alot of funny coloured liquid.
we have to dip the ice cream into the liquid
and say out the flavour that we want
then the ice cream will turn out that flavour.
there are even toppings!
say out the toppings u want
and it will appear. haha
then we kept eating the ice cream
it is like the ice cream never melts or finish.
we kept eating and eating.
till my mum came in my dream.
then we realised we couldnt afford the ice cream.
then i forgotten the rest.
this was one of the few dreams that i remembered
usually whenever i wake up i will forget about my dream.
or even forget about whether did i dream at all.
sometimes i just forget about my dreams.............
lols! positive! happy! smile! think positive!
thats my moto "ALWAYS THINK POSITIVE"

gtg. my mum is screaming again.
she always have to scream on wednesday.
how i wish that one day she would at least cool down.
and think before shes starts to open her mouth
why is she such a picky person.
she always wants everything to be neat.
even when it isnt her room.
there isnt such thing as privacy in this house.
i cant even have peace in my room
as she always comes in my room to check on me.
i cant even lock my room door!
or rather not my room but the room my sis and i are sharing?
i really wanna have my own room soon!
how i wish....

2009-06-22T13:14:00.003+08:00

woohoho.
x10 perfect in audi yesterday.
long time no see perf chain buddy!
but still cant beat my old record x11

well. two day ago i had the block party.
we helped out with the food
ashering. mc.
games and many more.
well... i think only some people have to go.
kinda fun.
talked to new people too.
but the weather was freaking hot!
me and sam pespired hell lot.
cause we were wearing jeans.
then it turned out that we dont have to
[we were told to wear jeans by a girl from dance at the end that girl wore skirt?!]
wtf.
haiz
i dont have the strength the post anymore about the block party.
just that i reached home about 10 plus.
so late T.T

2009-06-19T19:23:00.003+08:00

Why do i keep watching shows that have tragic ending!
why does all the tragic shows keep coming to me?! T.T
booohoooo....
the show above is called "Sang Doo! Let's go to school!"
just watched finished since yesterday night :D
started yesterday night
ended at 6:56
haha altogether 18 epidsodes i think..
my mum just bought a new set of dvds.
DVDSSSSSS i said.
so i was kinda bored at home as my dad was using the comp
so she asked me to watch this k drama.
Bi/rain can act!
just found out that rain's real name was 정지훈 / Jung Ji Hoon (Jeong Ji Hun)
ring a bell?
one of the BOF guys eh haha
this is the second show that i have seen rain acting.
the first was full house.
then this.
his acting is kinda cute i admit.
but that doesnt means i am all head over heels for him.
haiz...
another tragic show watched this month T.T

2009-06-16T17:52:00.002+08:00

pillow fight yay! what a mess they created
like what i did at sam's house.

came back from sam's house two days ago (:
i just finished destroying her house haha.
reached her house about 3 plus.
her family still sleeping
so i just went in her house.
wohohohoho i got the house key :3 [if u believe]
bathed the dogs.
talked for awhile
surf the net
then baked mango cream cheese together!
had dinner later.
afterwards we went back home to eat the
mango cream cheese cake!
it wasnt hardened yet.
so the cake turn out abit like porridge haha.
sam was maddddd.
she ate the cream cheese cake with yogurt and milk.
then later me and sam read megazines in her room.
then we ended up taking out all the megazines she had.
made a mess in the room.
haha cause we wanted to trying putting on make up.
we looked totally diff.
and it was not bad for first timers like us xD
we made a mess out of sam's mum's make up kit.
then racked her closet
try on diff clothes
haha.. we are mad! xD
camwhored.
this was the first time having this kind of sleepover.
it was funny how we wanted to go in sam's mum's room
to wash our face.
cause..... nvm hahaha
then we watched home alone at her dvd portable on her bed.
she slept first

next morning! woke up at 2 ==
i didnt know it was that late!
i tried calling sam up.
she didnt wake up ==
so nvm i used her comp for awhile...
haha when she is awake.
we cooked fried rice.
we nearly spoilt the frying pan.
and i accidently cut my thumb!
the food turned out to be ok.
haha nice xD
haiz... didnt get to swim at all.
actually didnt wanna go home yet.
wanna stay another day.
but!.. my mum sort of scolded me
so i feel kinda bad D:
then we asked matt to come stay over sam's house
then i will stay another day xD
[sam's mum allow the guys to stayover sam's house! both of us were shocked! and somehow happy.]
haha reached home about 8 or 9 plus. yeah late
had lots of fun at her house (:

p.s sam better start doing ur work oh oh and my mum allows us to have tuition together (:

2009-06-13T00:11:00.002+08:00

My gunner! wei jie. jing sheng. me! [cass]
wei jie- infighter
jingsheng- infighter
me- gunslinger

i aint a maple addict. i quit already
just looking through all my games screenshot.
i am more of the audition side (:
but not addict

tomorrow gonna stay over at sam's house xD happy and exicited!
gonna bathe her naughty bad breathe pup charlie
charlie's mouth always stinks == no offence sam!
u should brush his teeth more often! >3
hope aunt celine wins the custody of megan...
sam i am on ur side!
hope the battle is over soon....
cause i heard alot of bad things about megan's dad
not sam's dad.
like how megan's dad always beat her D:
noooooO! cruelty!
sam's dad is actually not bad (:
he is kinda nice i met him last year.. i think...yeah i did.
the begining of last year right. (:
collected hong bao from him! xD
hope sam wakes up on time tomorrow!
till then! byes (:

2009-06-12T19:31:00.002+08:00

My wish is to go japan and visit mount fuji!
japan has been my dreeeeaaam country to visit (:
i wish when i grow up i will wanna explore more about the world
and study about nature that is surrounding us.
i love this kinda jobs.

wow it finally rained today!
this week was kind of a shocking week for me.
kinda unexpected week.
dont know whether is it a good thing
or a bad thing....
but i hope it is good.
wanted to go sam's house today
and wanted to chat with her...
wanted to chat with her about some stuff...
stuff that i wanna get it out from my chest/heart..
haiz but... up till now she hadnt replied my message..
guess she is still sleeping.
ah! she just replied me. 7:37 pm
good timing!
she said she slept the whole afternoon
eeeeh... so like her! haha
guess thats it for today (:
byes :D

2009-06-10T23:42:00.003+08:00

Today was kinda of a happy day for me xD
as u guys probably know that i went escape theme park today.
had alot of fun.
kinda lazy now to post so much about what happened
so i will just try to keep it short {:

met up with sam and her sis who were with morris.
then travelled all the way to pasir ris.
supposed to meet at 11
reached pasir ris at
11:12 the rest of the guys were late.
heard that jon just came out of his house
at 10:58... must clap for him.
so we decided to shop around the mall.
i bought my bangles
and tried the toy catching game.
wasted four dollars ==
finally after one hour.. the guys arrived.
took bus there
then the guys went to eat at bk.
12:59 they are still eating.
time wasted two hours total.
so we girls bought the tickets first.
then waited for the guys to go in together.

the first ride we took will be the viking ship.
the girls sit one end
the guys sit the other end.
this way we would be facing each other.
looking at the guy's face just makes me burst out in laughter.

next would be the mini rollercoaster.
quite fun.
but my back seriously hurts ><

third would be the haunted house.
i hate it the most.
as u know i hate horror stuff to the core.
sam sort of forced me to go.
so we made a train.
i was standing behind alvin.
andrea was behind me.
when we went in i closed my eyes straight away.
then i hid my face on alvin's back.
i kept screaming ==
most of time i was hopping
cause i didnt want them to grab my feet.
as they grabbed sam's
that was the first time i screamed hell lot.
then when we saw the exit.
i quickly bang the door
couldnt stand it.
nearly cried too.
thanks alvin for ur back xD
and alvin kept fake screaming luhh.
stop scaring people luhh.
[FYI, this was my first time going to haunted house.]

later we went for the..... yakult thingy
dont know how to say...
it is where we have to lie down on the thing.
then the thing will go round and round.
matthew 's feet were infront of me luhh.
so smelly haha.

next they guys went for the go kart.
we girl didnt
maybe we were kinda lazy to..

then i think wei yang jj and ying went for the wild wet.
the rest of us went for the kiddy ride haha

afterwards the guys head to burgerking.
we girls went to play at the game stalls with morris.
i was lucky today won a large toy xD
like what wei yang sms me.
he said he is lucky tats why when i sms him
my parents did scold me cause i went home late today.
so i must be talking about him while playing the game.
but talking bad about him xD
i won a dolphin!
went in bk to show off to the guys xD

weiyang jj and ying soon came in to bk.
sooking wet
wy asked us to come join them.
we didnt know join what..
until we went to the wild wet station...
they tricked us.
i sat with andrea
i sat at the back.
and got sooking wet
head to toe was drenched.
but overall fun xD
i went three times in a row.
we drag one new guy every round.
first round was with weiyang jj and ying
second was with alvin
third was with alvin and jon.

we sat the viking ship again!
two times in a row.
again the guys sat the other end.
then we had screaming competition.
hilarious

we went back to the mall after escape.
ate dinner there.
ordered red wine chicken mee sua
didnt really finished it cause i was feeling
very very very nauseas.

took the train back home
took lots of pics in the mrt.
haha

thanks guys for the great fun today
hope we can have another outing like this soon!

ps. still waiting for sam to upload the pictures. so just wait (:

HUUUUNGRY!

2009-06-10T02:20:00.004+08:00

lol wow.
2.20 already
changed blogskin {:
kinda bored with the old one.
sudden craving for penang laksa!
oooh nooo!!!
cant wait for tomorrow/today!
tata gtg sleep {:

2009-06-09T20:49:00.002+08:00

just watched finish a jap movie.
called koizora "Love Sky". [above]
the most nicest sad jap movie i ever watched.
cried 3/4 of the movie.
bet my mum will be wondering why are my eyes red.
u guys should watch it {:
if people cant take hot guys dying dont watch this.[warning]
haha

tomorrow escape!
heard that chris may not be going.
well who cares ==
heard that morris will not be going.
like that we will have to pay lesser money for the tickets
i can get 8 tickets for 30 dollars.
original price 1 ticket 17 dollars
lol if both of them not going 8 people will be going
then each of us need to pay 3 dollars only.
it is not like if they dont go the whole world will die.
dont go then dont go stay at home play ur Maple story ba
and rot.

2009-06-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

Sam complaint to me that she is hungry
and that her house didnt have any food to eat.
drew this dessert for her xD
sad that it couldnt be sent to her through msn.
drew her a cup noodle too though but i didnt save it ><
i accidently closed the msn chat room.
sry sam!
enjoy eating! xD

2009-06-08T20:25:00.003+08:00

Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait
Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait
Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait
Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait
Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait
Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait
Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait
Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait Cant wait
for wednesday to come!
i pray to lord that he would give us good good weather on wednesday amen! :x AAIIIIRRRSSCAAAPEEE! yay~!
cant wait to go escape theme park with sam and the guys.
yeah?
will take loads and loads of pics {:

2009-06-07T19:36:00.002+08:00

Am i still dreaming?
Mixed feelings messes with people's head
Jealousy makes people do stupid stuff
Anger blinds people making them do horrible stuff
Confusion makes people feel disillusioned
...................................?.................................

Why must all negative feelings exist in the dictionary.
this isnt a holiday that i am looking forward to...

2009-06-04T16:35:00.012+08:00

i was just browsing through my nepal pictures.
i realised how much all of us changed.
and all the fun i had last time.
now i realised that i have to treasure my friendship yeah?.
sam and emi are the friends that i find are really meanful to me most.
well that doesnt mean the rest of my friends arent.
just that i find both of them are the friends that are always with me so far.
and they are ones that i went overseas together with first xD
they are first close friends to go overseas with me. twice yeah?
sleepovers at sam's house. many many many times?
haha till i cant count. then we would stay up late at sam's house.
playing x box! burnout rocks! halo too!!
then sometimes we would talk about guys.
then we destroyed sam's nail polish.
i made her nail turn black haha.
swimming till late at night....
sleeping on the big float together while on the pool.
trying to capsize each other. >3
telling each other our problems.
haha funniest thing me and sam remember till now about emi is her panties!...
lol shouldnt talk about it ><>
then we would talk about the guys.
and about our bf.
haiz everything we do used to have some connections.
including our anniversary and all this!
even remember our friendship song?
remember the time we had sleepover at sam's house
to make 200 cup cakes.
we didnt have proper sleep at all
but it was fun xD
and the cup cakes turned out great!
oh ohoh. remember the time we went for halloween?!
haha that day rocked.
sad all the sweets we collected i had to throw them away. D:
they melted!
haha the dim sum lady.
we were so afraid to go near them.
remember the lady with the umbrella?
three of us agreed that she is pretty :D
and the clowns.
lol they looked scary to me.
this year i wanna go again!
remember the day on my birthday?
my dad booked a hotel at raffles for us
so that we can stay there for two days.
then we bought 6 cup noodles xD
me and sam locked emi outside the balcony
cause she didnt wanna bath with us
instead she wanna talk to jj [sry faiz past time.]
remember we even bought a big carton of milk.
we came back to the hotel rm late!
and my parents didnt cared too xD
remember the time we went to kukup together?
we played majong the entire day.
then we threw each other the majong pieces haha
then the tour guide thought that we and my sis and her friend and my cousin were my dad's daugther? haha altogether 6 daugthers!
remember the dog smelling its own poop? haha
i wanna stay over at sam's house together again
i wanna go halloween together again
i wanna ask my dad to book the hotel so that we stay there just the three of us again.
i wanna stay at the pool till late at night together again
i wanna go kukup together again
i wanna go sentosa together again
i wanna go nepal together again
i wanna go overseas together again
sighs.
but i know it cant be true.
now we are splitted yeah?
me and sam are still together
and u have ur new clique.
it seemed to me like u are having alot of fun there {:
happy for u.
but i missed the old times.
i remember this year.. the first few months
sam was angry with emi..
cause emi distanced away from us.
we were very sad D:
haiz now we are in diff classes.
with diff friends.
with diff interest.
with diff communications.
with diff personailities.
how i wish to be in 2008 again.

NEPAL 2008

naaaw the length of my hair DD:

lol sam! she looked diff eh.

sam and emi.
lol they are so cute xD

lol sam sleeping. i dont think she knows about it eh xD

remember the time when we had trouble capsizing in the freezing water! till we nearly cried and wanted to give up.

everybody looked so sian. but look at sam with those big eyes.

funny scene of mr ow

hmm..

nice eh?

illegal gathering.

when seeing the snow mountain. i had this nice feeling that is undescribable... it was really nice xD

our room at the end. the biggest one!

the school kids there {:

played london bridge is falling down with them {:

thats me xD i passed the white water {:

happy ending?

last min add! i realised something.
blue jacket pink jacket green jacket!
lol mine is olive green not brown fyi!

2009-06-03T20:06:00.003+08:00

Have been going school for extra lessons this whole entire week.
T.T it doesnt feels like holidays.
but glad that at least i got half of my a maths homework done.
today is marilyn's birthday i heard?
Happy Birthday! :D

today's lesson was a bore!
cause sam didnt come.
she was still sleeping at home
PIG!
haha. so nothing to do i went home straight.
did my homework and some revision.
then fell asleep infront of the tv.

i was supposed to post pictures on my blog
but i was too lazy to upload it.
so people have to wait yeah :D

2009-05-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

This is so hilarious and TRUE

2009-05-28T17:07:00.003+08:00

ah. back to blogging again.
guess was too lazy to update
today was meet the parents
didnt go to school as my mum is going.
this sucks.
deproving DD:
guess this year i was kinda lazy to study hard.
maybe i should change that way of thinking soon.

this few days have been hanging out with the
BSB guys.
played basketball with em.
enjoyed alot too :D
teased around them.
laughed with them.
eating lunch with them.
haiz...

oh 18 may was my 15th birthday yeah?
forget to thanks some people for the presents :D
thanks so much for the present!
sam
emilyn
alvin
chris
zhe hui
nigel [still waiting]
serena[still waiting]
sister!
my mum
dad {:
and 3f for the letter
zahiya for the letter
syikin sheenaz for the letter
and emilyn faiz for the letter {:

2009-05-16T17:26:00.004+08:00

School was alright.
Test
sleeping in class
scolding from teachers again
CCA
pissed of by someone D:
muscles aching.
haiz as usual.

thursday
me and sam planned to go KFC at anchor today
with the BSB and ying wen
finally everyone was there.
last time chris went home then jj wasnt there
this time both of them are here.
it was fun to go out with them xD
after the KFC
jon matt and chris had to go back school for basketball.
sad they cant pon D:
then mystisrically ying wen disappeared ==
i think he went home.
then wei yang, alvin, morris, jj
followed us.
walked around anchor point.
alvin was so sweet!
i went to an accessory booth
alvin was "what u want for your birthday?which one u want?"
me:"what?"
Alvin "i buy for u la which one u want? aiya 15 dollars also can."
haha!
but i said i have alot then it is ok xD
then me and sam and alvin played with the escalator.
haha dam funny.
three of us went down the escalator.
then we waited for the rest of the guys downstairs.
then we thought they not coming down
so we went up again.
suddenly the rest of the guys appeared and went down the escalator too.
then the three of us went down again.
then the rest of the guys went up again!
==
complicating ehs.
we went to the badge shop we usually go to~!
alvin bought his PWNED! badge.
next to comics connection.
when we saw one section that has alot of stuff toy.
alvin asked me which one i want.
haha
eventually he bought me a stuff toy!
lol early gift ==
thanks alvin!
now i dont know what to buy for him..

RAWR! Ng Wei Yang and Samantha Koh An Qi
keep stepping on my new shoe!
WY go and eat grass la!
had so much fun that day.
kept laughing xD

friday
lol
gonna skip the school part.
today was ncc.
we kayaked instead of dragon boating.
me and sam bought lunch
and ate on the bus while reading megazines.
then bryan was dam irritating.
he kept asking whether he can read.
i think he is blind.
cause we are currently reading the megazine
and he wanna read.
and it is a girl megazine!
if he wanna read so badly go buy it then.
as usual.
cca was boring.
we went for a short marathon.
and funny now i think it was really really short.
last time when i was sec 2 or 1
that small distance usually tires me out.
ms raj was hilarious.
she kept saying she give up kayaking.
haha she couldnt keep up with us.
she kept stopping
then she kept asking me and sam to company her.
haha so three of us were right behind.
after the short distance we had free time.
and sam and i did something funny.
sam hold on to my combing[kayak hole]
and i kept doing the left sweep stroke.
then our boat keeps going round and round and round.
it was quite fun.
but i hit sam's head quite alot of times.
haha sorry!
we laughed hard too!
after we washed the boat and everything.
it was raining
and we had 4 minutes to bath only.
zzz last time we usually had 10 to 20 minutes to bath
but again everything changed.
haiz D:
but still the sec 3 girls didnt care
we still bathed.
it is raining and four minutes is too short la.
we still have to wait for the rain to stop right?
so it shouldnt be only 4 minutes ==
reached school.
sam and i didnt go to the ncc classroom.
cause we were smart enough not to put our bags there.
heng we put at our classroom.
cause when we were at our classroom.
i can hear that the ncc people were doing push ups as punishment
for whatever stupid reasons again.
afterwards me and sam follwed alvin wei yang yingwen and ifraq
to the indoor sports hall
the rest of the bsb were playing basket ball.
then we waited till 7.45
me and sam and alvin wanted to leave already.
magically the rest of the guys also followed us xD
haha

naaw. i will stop it with my talking. pictures~!

bought for my mum (:

wy. jon [jon enjoying his last piece of chicken]

chris matt

ying wen jj

jon. he was the last one to eat finish

wei yang.

omg. jon dam violent in public.

gift from alvin xD called it lemon!

Lemon says hi!

me and sam after ncc [waiting for the guys at indoor]

WHEEL WEEK

2009-05-11T00:26:00.006+08:00

OKOK sam stop it.
since sam wants it
i shall just type since i have nothing better to do.

haha. my job was just to decorate the kindergarten.
me elisse and YL were in the decorating team {:
the guys were doing something else.
it took us four days to completely decorate finish the library!
it was quite well done.
i like the door {:
we cam whored abit in the library
and slacked while hearing radio.
i like the chair there!
so comfy!
but aunty claire found a dead cockroach underneath it ==
haha i remembered when there is a big moth at the library door
me elisse and yl started to scream out loud running down the stairs
we purposely called aunty claire to help us out [btw aunty claire=clarence]
he was teaching chinese half way hahaha
i interupted him! sorry!
then when we brought him the to library door.
he was like our shiny knight in armour until he said
"aiyo i also scared of moth ehs"
but he was still brave to go to the door xD
then when the moth started to fly again
we three girls started to run down the stairs again screaming louder this time.
then i found aunty claire running away hiding behind the other door hahahahahaha
thanks to him we get to go in the library again.

and there was time when the guys were playing soccer
in the room.
the ball flew and hit my head.
then later bing qi kicked the ball
and the ball hit elisse's head.
i turned to yl and said "next is ur turn"
but sad it didnt hit her at all D:
later on bing qi messaged elisse "i am sorry the ball hit ur head"
we were like wooooaaaah.
hahaha
the last day of wheel week was the most meaningful one.
we got to sing with the kids.
then one boy got attached to me.
he daaaaaam chuby.
there was a boy inbetween me and bing qi.
he seemed like he wanna sit on bing qi's lap badly.
he keep on pointing at bing qi to me haha
then i tell bing qi
ask him to hug him or put him on his lap
he dam ps then he dont want ==
after the singing session we got back to decorating.
then the kids started to scream and cry one by one.
irritating
my ears gonna spoil.
after the decorating and it was time to leave.
me elisse and yl didnt wanna leave the library.
lol somehow we just got attached to it.
then afterwards we said our last bye to the people there
me elisse yl aunty claire took a bus to tampines mall
we decided to buy stuff for our mothers and have dinner there
we ate at carls jr. portobello mushroom rocks!
then aunty claire had to rush home.
so he went home first.
we went to the florist.
i bought three red sunflowers and a pink rose
1 redsunflower for my mother granny aunty each
since the next day i am gonna meet them to celebrate mommy's day in a hotel restaurant.
and a pink rose for my mum's birthday.
then elisse decided not to buy anything
cause she and her sisters are going give her mommy a cake {:
then yl bought three toy roses for her mom.
after wards we were in more than words
reading through the birthday cards.
lol it was hilarious.
we were reading the whole bunch of cards ==
then we decided to go home.
it was already 7? i think
elisse and yl are dropping off at clementi
elisse wanna take 154 back home
yl wanna buy dinner there.
left me and "my" psp alone D:
went home
gave my mum the pink rose {:
she was shock
and happy haha

the last day was the meaningful one {:
and the most enjoyable day.
haha
time for pics!

LOVE THE CHAAAIR~!

nice eh?

the door~!

i drew the tree {:

elisse and yl

goooey paint

fyi it is a deer not moose == drawn by me! not bad ehs {:

lion~! i drew it {: ugly D:

snake and DEER. by me again xD

lol foood. hayayetta![hungry]

paper plates~!

paranoma shot

messy table

yl!

yl took a candid shot.

snap! elisse me YL

sucked D:

2009-05-01T17:39:00.003+08:00

After reading emilyn's post about NCCsea ..
i have so many things to say about it..
but i dont know how to explain it.
after all this three years [to be] in ncc
i found that.. i actually liked it best when i am in sec 1.

trainings were tough.
yes it is
but it was all worthed it.
it turned out to build our teamwork better.

our cca was the youngest and smallest.
isnt it better that way?
so there wouldnt be any traditions or so that we have to follow.
and the smaller the group is
the better we are able to know each other.

the teachers were experienced and strict
but they are kind. nice. couraging. funny. lamers. jokers. understanding. unglam people. caring...
they always play with us.
our cca is always having alot of freedom.
they allowed us to have fun.
or rather they MADE SURE we had fun.

they are leaving us one by one....
how i missed them.
they are appearing lesser and lesser everyday.
stupid people.
i hate them for leaving us.
idiot craps.
feel like throwing darts D:[evil]
why must you leave *sobs*

everyday, every minute, every moment,
people are getting sick of ncc.
they going just for the sake of cca points.
and attendance.
not cause it is ~~FUN~~

The ~~BEST~~ cca is still there?
is it true now...
is ncc still the best to me?
people may think if i am sick of ncc why not just quit.
people may think they dont need me in that cca.
pathetic cca.
i cant just quit now.
if we quit wont we disappoint mr heng?
then people will think if we are afraid of disappointing him
then why not we show him that ncc still can be better without him?
that i dont wanna do it. cause it is not true.

NCC is a BONDING cca?
no more.
i dont even know the sec ones.
except those who are under me during sec one orientation'09.
it was supposed to be a cca i looked forward to everyday.
why is everyone always wanting to be the ICs?
why is everyone ordering each other to do?
isnt there supposed not to be any shoutings? or ordering?
i feel like ncc has turned ugly.
people trying to be the best of best.
people trying to show the others that they are the best.
people trying to make people feel inferior.
people trying to make others feel small.
people trying to turn ncc into a strict cca.
people who are always shouting at others.
PEOPLE WHO ONLY KNOW HOW TO USE THEIR FUCKING LOUD VOICE
PEOPLE WHO ARE TURING THIS WHOLE THING INTO ANOTHER CRAP.
crap man.

you know...after expressing everything in my mind.
i feel that..
one thing that makes this cca special is that because..
everyone WAS equal.
there wasnt any foot drill even though we are in a UG cca.
hahas....
now i wished cap alvin had changed it to a
"OUTDOOR ADVENTURE CLUB"
how cool.
then there wouldnt be any FALLING IN.
or even punishment for not falling in properly.
or for not able to fall in properly within 10 secs.

sighs.
why must they leave?
this cca is turning into crap.
i would do anything in the world just to go back to sec 1 cca times.
now i think...
the sec 4's this year were the ones that made us united in '07.
now just cause everything is changed.
and that they have O'levels.
they dont have the time for cca.
haiz.
we shared bunks.
secrets >[]<
food.
toothbrush? haha
water!!
shared punishments.
couraged each other.
and even gossiped O:

some people may think we are just some stupid people complaining about our lifes.
and we should grow up.
FYI, u are not me.
and u dont know how i feel.
u dont know what fun we HAD.

SIGHS

i am getting fucking angry now.

i should just calm down..
blogging really makes people express their true feelings.
lol it is dangerous. haha

2009-04-25T13:17:00.002+08:00

was supposed to go out today
but there was a sudden change
so it was cancelled D:
bored at home!

omg ncc sucked right now..
i dont really like how the things are done.
sigh.
they should at least ask our opinion before choosing.
i think only some people understand what i am talking about.
it just makes me wanna quit ncc.
i find it pointless to even go for cca now.
D:

2009-04-18T10:16:00.002+08:00

There is camp
There is camp
There is camp
There is camp
There is camp
There is camp
There is camp
There is camp
There is camp
==
how much i dont feel like going.
i have to leave the house at 2.15
reach school at 3 today.
AKE CAMP....
anual kayaking expedition.
this is the MINI ake...
i dont know how MINI their MINI is.
but i have the feeling that it is not MINI

at first i really didnt wanna go.
but sam would cry everyday xD
haha
i used that sentence to tease her.
she went bonkers when i told her
that i am finally going.
4 more hours to camp ==
from today till sunday wont be at home.
rawr!
my free time is completely gone.!

Confused-madly

2009-04-12T15:42:00.002+08:00

realised that u cant always have what u always want.
i am really feeling confused this few days.
one time i am feeling happy.
then i suddenly feel this pain in my heart.
i am just confusing my heart.
i am confusing myself again.
why do i always confused myself everytime.
people around me are just confusing me.
i dont know whether are they real to me.
or are they just playing with my feelings.
why cant people just be straight to others?
why cant they just get things straight.
stop playing with people's feelings.
idiots...

doing geog now.
clueless of what to write.
geography is 1000000xxx times better than hist.
headaches!!

En-mazing race!

2009-04-11T20:58:00.003+08:00

Had lots of fun today xD
went for the en-mazing race challange
clarence didnt come. cause his parents dont allow D<>[]< sorry jon]
i was drenched==
by the time we crossed the bridge
we realised that the game masters were gone.
wasted our time ==
then we have to cross back again.
shared umbrella with jon again.
this time i am totally drenched like mad.
my shoe became a bucket for water.
my mr smiley became mr wet.
haha
sighs...
when we reached back vivo...
we were the last few to arrive back xD
thats how fun it was.

i am glad i went for this thing.
i got to know jon better xD
i talked to him more often now.
i even realised something!
but i am going to keep mum about it :x
CLARENCE CHING KAH HING PONNER haha

PICTURES!

Anais, Camille, Me, Grace[our facillator], Jon
Group Pic :x

Camille and me

Anais and me

Me and Jon

2009-04-10T09:02:00.003+08:00

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY~!
i did this when i am bored..
did it before going church x)

haha i knew it that sam hates rollercoasters ride.
i remembered about last year. escape theme park.
PIRATE SHIP~! HAHA.
when my family were in the taxi today..
i plugged in my earphones
and listen to music.
was listening to the album my sis bought.
classical piano. "rain dreams"
it was nice.
i closed my eyes while listening to the raindrops.
then i suddenly felt this sad feeling in my heart.
i suddenly remembered alot of my problems.
all the problems are engulfing me.
up till now... theres one problem that i cant forget.
only some people know what.
i dont know what i did wrong.
but that problem just keep haunting me.
i want to be strong.
then suddenly remembered about sammy...
haiz wanna hug her so bad! x)
not a les...
just that whenever i see her.
i just feel comforted.
she always seems so cheery.
sometimes i envy her...
she seemed like she doesnt have any enemies...
sigh..
whatever i do they always made me one..
nvm~!
sammy~!! i missed u .... ==

tomorrow need go for the en-mazing race thingy sighs

2009-04-04T10:01:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM ON 1ST APRIL! xD

i havent been updating my blog for some time already...
cause i didnt have the time.
hey hey next week sat excape theme park!
who wanna come? xD
i have to cancel it T.T
this sat having some event.

Tagged by Juliana {:

2009-03-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

1. Besides Ur lips,where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
Gimme one reason why i should type it out

2. How do u feel when u wake up this morning?
Sleepy and Annoyed. especially on sch days

3. Who was the last person u took photo with?
aaah. i think my god bro[anthony]

4. Would you consider urself to be spoiled?
i am not sure. but i hope i am :D

5. Would you ever donate blood?
i am not clear. cause i predict that even before i step in the place to donate next thing i know is that i am on a bed. :x

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
hmm. Kindergarden~!

7. Do u wan someone dead?
Omg . how i wish xD

8. What does ur last text message says?
wait. which one? sent or inbox?

9. What are u thinking right now?
to complete this quiz ASAP

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
yeah. if my toy Orange is considered a someone

11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
4am+ xD

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
Ask my mum

13. Is someone on ur mind right now?
Katy perry. cause juliana wrote her name in this qs when i read it ==

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
what do u mean by last! i still wanna live long.

10 people tagged to do this quiz.
1. Nigel
2. Samantha
3. Kimbelyn
4. Rachel.Y
5. Siti
6. Emilyn
7. Tricia
8. WeiJie
9. Lina
10. JingSheng
[u dont have a blog do it in facebook == no complaints!]

15. Who is 2 having a relationship with? [Samantha]
Morris

16. Is 3 a male or female? [Kimbelyn]
Female.

17. If 7 and 10 get tgt,would it be a good thing? [ Tricia & JingSheng ]
Er. [Crazy]+[Normal]= forget about it.

18. What is 1 studying abt? [Nigel]
About? Many things? huh?

19. When was the last time u had a chat with them?
with who? i cant possibly say each one of them...

20. Is 4 single? [Rachel.Y]
Hehe who knows xD

21. Say something about number 2? [Samantha]
-cute -bubbly -hyper -smart -aint a lazy ass like me -great great great best girlfriend
-loyal -non backstabber. maybe == -pretty -funny -BLUR -day dreamer -big my melody fan -big fan of collecting stuff [like me xD] - it will take me years to describe everything....

22. What do you think about 3 & 6 being tgt? [Kimbelyn & Emilyn]
HEH. FAT HOPE. Emilyn is taken! >3

23. Describe 9? [Lina]
Wuhaha! Big fan of big bang! can see. she is always crazy. and hyper. and happy. wuhaha i have such great friends xD

24. What will you do if 6 n 7 fight? [Emilyn & Tricia]
never really seen them had a long converse.

25. Do you like 10? [JingSheng]
My Audi best buddy! xD Such a great accompanion. i had best of times xD

2009-03-21T20:01:00.008+08:00

Helloooo Singapore~!
sighs.
how i wished that time will stop
i didnt wanna go bacl to sg
cause... it is going to be sch reopen!
and i have no time to do homework! :x

day one.19march
woke up at 4?
got prepared
i was very excited.
all i did was mostly slept the whole day.
as the weather was HOT.
saw alot alot of cats xD
i slept in the coach
the ferry
and in my resort rm
sleepy head ==

day two.20march
woke up early!
i didnt wanna get out of the bed.
so comfy =w=
prepared for breakfast.
then went snorkling! yay~!
the last time i went was when i was 7
so i cried when i went in the sea
[i was so afraid of water ~~last time~~]
enjoyed alot.
seen alot of beautiful fishes and corals.
it was an amazing experience.
haha i didnt want to leave the sea (aahh~!)
i sulked to my dad when the boat man said we had to leave

day three.21march
the last day!
aww man.
i usually dread the last day whenever
my fun had just begun.
i wanted to find for my favourite cat
that i named it caramel
it likes to follow me.
but i couldnt T.T
sighs.
while we waited for the ferry
we fed fishes at the jetty.
it was so much fun see the fishes
rushing to the bread pieces xD
when we reached to the other side of malaysia.
we board the coach.
i ate one burger and one hot dog bread.
then i got car sick while watching
i am legend on my dad's dvd player.
sighs. i felt horrible!
then again... i thought about my a maths and chinese homework
that i did not complete.
sighs.

enough about my talkng
time for pictures!

GAH SUNBURN!

lazy to post all of my pics :x

Praise the Lord xD

2009-03-18T20:58:00.001+08:00

YES!
FINALLY!
I PASSED MY HELMS INSTRUCTOR COURSE TEST!!
luckily i didnt fail if not waste my 60 dollars
i dont have to paddle anymore!
i just have to steer the boat!
wuhahaha
after three days of hard paddling
5hours under the sun paddling straight
i became blacker.
by the time sch reopen i will be
twice the black than today.
as i will be going tioman island~!
snorkling~!
today would be my last time EVER
paddling again!
my whole body aches like mad.
it felt like we paddled for kms everday.
sighs.
i will end here xD
well had fun during the helms course anyways
made new friends
went home late :x
byes :D
why do you guys keep saying that our class look down on u guys?!do u know how hurt i felt when i see some people saying that we looked down to you people who said that we looked down to you?!why do you guys do this?!if i ever looked down on u guys then i wouldnt have begged the lord to have the same old 2eff again.please stop all those rubbish about us looking down on u people.

2009-03-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

how i wish to have my own comp.
then i dont have to talk to my dad
and BEG him for the password.
fk off

2009-03-09T22:26:00.002+08:00

ABRAM GOT MY MR HAPPY! :3
THANKS SO MUCH AH-BRUM

next target: cinnamoroll plushie! xD
anyone help me buy?!

2009-03-08T20:27:00.003+08:00

This what happened today
1.wake up
2.bath
3.read newspaper
4.got scolding by dad
5.change
6.scolding by dad
7.church
8.lunch
9.vivo
10.home
11.scolding again
12.dinner
13.sulking
14.sianing
15.home
16.blogging {:

PICTURES

done by my sis~!

coke

this what happens when i am bored

omg who is that?! oversized kindergarten kid

lol thats not me

if thats what you wish for me to do.
then i will follow it.
if you are happy with that decision.
then let it be.
i will forget you.
or even run faster away from you.
but i wish i can do it. i will try (:

2009-03-07T23:30:00.002+08:00

today was supposed to meet tricia
at chinese garden by 12.30
but i was late! ps tricia!! ><
realised i misplaced my ezlink card
while walking to the train.
then have to rush home for it.
then realised it was in my bag.
thats why i late! kns ==

ate at long john at vivo!
then watched movie
"marley and me"
let me spoil for everyone
MARLEY DIED. lols :D
aiya. i felt that this show very normal
all the endings would always be the same.
the dog wil die
owner cry
then audience cry

sam and pearly never come D<
haiz. sam!
everytime like that de.
last minute cancel.
i will smack her ass later in sch! haha
gtg audi~!

byes <3

i dont hate you.
but just gimme a little more time.
dont hate me or give up on me just bare with me for now.
let me understand you
let me know you better
let me closer
let me feel that warmth
let me remember those days
let me smell that scent once again
let me miss you once more
let me get to sleep properly again >3
let me fulfil your wishes

LOLed day

2009-02-28T19:43:00.005+08:00

Damn sian can...
my fucking internet keep on got prob.
wtf
keep on disconnecting then connect again.
rawr~!!
then now using the one computer modem
wohohoho only i can use
my sister cannot~!

i want go japan badly!
it has been my fave top most want go country ><
sighs.
now recession so my mum dont let me go.
only can stay in singapore during wheel week.
then also cause my dad just booked a trip le
then dont want spend money again.
sighs.
i want hug samantha! random ==
i want hug something huge!
huge and soft.
maybe a huuuuge cinnamoroll/babytiger stuff toy!
the size of my mummy! [if my mum sees this i am dead]

forget it

2009-02-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

Forget it
the past is the past.
i shan't argue any longer.

LINKS

2009-02-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

LINKS TO STICKERS~!
http://sleepywolfzzz.deviantart.com/art/dragon-sticker-112841217 [NIGEL'S DRAGON ><]

http://sleepywolfzzz.deviantart.com/art/2009-crazy-chibi-sticker-110225405 [NIGEL'S GUY WITH BALLOON?]

SORRY BUT MY SIS DIDNT TAKE A PIC OF AMA'S STICKER >[]<

COLOURED BY USING MARKERS 50 CENTS EACH?
SELF CUSTOMED STICKERS!
COLOURED OR NON COLOURED!.

STICKERS

2009-02-14T23:21:00.002+08:00

MY SIS IS CURRENTLY SELLING HAND MADE STICKERS.
IF YOU WANT EM CONTACT ME OR ANYTHING (:
I WILL POST THE PHOTOS OF THE STICKERS THAT SHE MADE FOR AMALINA AND NIGEL AND ME LATER ON :D

2009-02-14T19:30:00.004+08:00

Cam-whored at cross country[more pics]

Feeling FUCKING stressed

2009-02-14T00:02:00.005+08:00

cross country.
lunch.
walked round jurong point hundred times.
leg tired.
lazy to explain everything ==

PICTURES!

so dark D:

IT IS TRUE!

NITHYA!

OI!

SISTERS o.o?

shit. i feel so stupid now.i regretted taking that step.next time maybe i should just rely on my own.is it a misunderstanding?i hope so.i really do hope it is a misunderstanding.why must there be so many people confusing me everyday and everywhere i go.whats embarressment?why did it even appear in the fucking dictionary.why do i even bother about being embarressed when i know i dont even have a bloody face.i shouldnt have gave you that letter.now i regretted it alot.it would be better to just stay single till i am mentally prepared for another relationship.woudlnt it be better?

To someone: is best to stop loving me. as i cant change the fact that i dont love you anymore.ever since that accident happen. our relationship has a big downfall. just cause of one silly mistake you made.and that mistake reached my limit. even though you kept smsing me that you still loved me. but i dont anymore. do you know how much i was hurt when i have to always forgive you of your silly mistakes? i know people sometimes do make silly mistakes. but i cant take it anymore. as you have hurt me many times.so please stop saying that you still love me. it feels like you are adding stress to me. i have alot of stress in me now. my work, friend problems, and even my love life. i am not an expert in love. and neither will i be. so i am begging you. please stop it already. i dont love you anymore. i am sorry.i have to be direct this time.

i feel so agitated right now.i really need some one close to me. i feel very very hurt. i have been confused this few weeks. but no one knows.i hate myself.and i began to slash myself again.i tried not to do it. but it seems like i cant control my mind right now.it is quickly taking over me.where are my loved one when i need them. i always feel that they were always not around me. i always feel that...they would rather be with their own loved ones. i always feel lonely and always an outsider.everyday is just a normal day for me.i really want to solve this problem quick.it is affecting my lifestyle and most importantly my studies.i really wished that time will go back when i dont know you. then i will be saved. i wouldnt feel all this pain and anguish.do everyone really hate me that much?

i have decided to try to not love you or anyone else.
i will try....

TAGGED BY RACHEL YEO D:

2009-02-13T21:12:00.003+08:00

Rules:It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question .
1. What is your name : OLEANDER
2. A four Letter Word : Opps
3. A boy's Name : Orlando Bloom xD
4. A girl's Name : Olivia! [my sis xD]
5. An occupation : Optician
6. A color : ORANGE
7. Something you'll wear : ORANGE shirts
8. A Sport: Olympics! :DD
9. A food : Oden [some Jap food]
10. Something found in the bathroom: Olive oil [for hair!]
11. A place : OSAKA :D
12. A reason for being late : OVERsleeping D:
13 IS MISSING o.o
14. A movie title : Omen o.o [OMG]
15. Something you drink : Orange Juice [Juuuuuuuuuuse]
16. A musical group : i know theres a band called Oleander! go check wiki!
17. An animal : Oxen
18. A street name : Oleander street o.o
19. A type of car : Olympus? [isit a camera brand? o.o]
20. The title of a song? : OMG [audition song]

ANYONE CAN DO THIS IF THEY ARE INTERESTED TO DO IT :D
[LAZY TO TAG]

Joey's Tag

2009-02-08T19:36:00.002+08:00

1.Who's the person who tagged you?
-Joey

2.Relationship between you and him/her?
-Friend.

3. 5 impresions of him/her?
1.Funny
2.OverHyper
3.Scary
4.Good Friend :D
5.Sweeeeet~!

4.If he/she become your enemy you will?
-I am too afraid to be her enemy o.o

5.what will you say to the person you like very much?
-eer. i am here not there!

6.A characteristic i like about myself?
-Mood Swings

7.A characteristic i hate about myself?
-Lemme think... not telling :x

8.For the person whom u hate, u say?
-" [silent] "

9.What do u feel abt urself?
-I feel normal for the pass 14 years

10.Your crush?
-Why the hell do i wanna tell you when i didnt even tell my mum :x

11.Most ideal person u wanna be?
-Nah it is impossible.

Pass this one to 10 ppl:
1. Nigel
2. Samantha
3. Amalina
4. Zhe Hui
5. Joy
6. Chien Yee
7. Siti
8. Emilyn
9. Mas
10. My sis! xD

13.If 5 and 7 were together?
- o.o. Lesbians?

14.who does 5 like?
-Ask her not me -x-

15.what colour does 9 like?
-Pink?

16.Say smth to 8.
-Talk more to me! not faiz! :x

17.Who is 2?
-My lover :x sorry morris

18.Talk abt 3.
-i wont talk to her. i will just smack her butt :DD

19.Who is 10's best friend?
- er er er.. samantha loh?

20.whose the sexiest among the 10?
- dont want be bias. ME! >.>

21 . What colour does 4 like?
- his has been wearing black. black?

22.Is 4 Single?
-aww he has always been :x

23. Your relationship with 1?
-OMG MAN. he is my CRAZY PARTNER

24. Are 5 & 6 best friends?
-they hardly talk? so NO!!

25. 9's nickname
-i dont call nicknames. ouh maybe i do :x

26. 7's surname?
-OMG i dont know lehhs. sry!

27. say smth to 4.
-SMILE! :D

28. say smth to help 10.
-Dont lag le

29. who does 1 admire?
- OOUUUHHHHHH.. *****

30 . Where does 1 live?
-Bukit Batok?

31. among 10 of them who u like?
-ALL! i am so selfish ==

32 . Say smth to 6 when u see him/her?
-Hi Hi Hi Hi!!

33. 10's spouse ?
-She is too pure to have a crush.

MY FIRST WHITE HAIR

2009-02-08T19:26:00.002+08:00

today when i was waiting for my god parents
to arrive with their lorry
so that they can fetch us to church
my dad found my first white hair >.>
i dont know whether should i be happy or sad.
.....

Ahhhhh.....

half black half white

Fun Fun Fun :D

2009-02-08T19:11:00.005+08:00

yesterday went out with
sam
nigel
zhe hui
nithya
had a fun time mans :D
especially the playground
zhe kept getting missing in daiso
and we had hard time finding for him.
next time remember to bring a dog leash ==
met up with nithya's sis :D
it was so sad that she and her sis had to leave first

let the pictures do the talking!

me and nithya. not clear D:

GEEKS! but i like it o.o

hand extra >.> who arh...

zhe got cut off >.>

nigel's mouth so big!

TOP OF THE WORLD!

SLEPT DURING CHEM! xD

2009-02-05T21:06:00.002+08:00

had three test today.
E maths
Physics
IED.
OMG
i nearly died from it.
E maths luckily zhe hui last min teach me!
[thanks so much!]
i really must thank zhe hui alot xD
he has been helping me when ever i have
troubles in my work.
especially chinese and maths.
Physics was OK.
IED was.. what is common equity?! >.>

felt drowsy during english.
nearly fainted
cause i ate my cough syrup [may cause drowsiness the sticker said]
i got permission to sleep through chemistry :D

stayed back to do IED test.
then saw zhe (:
he so ke lian all alone
so sad he kana pang sei by nigel D:
so pei him
haha no la
nigel got malay lessons.
again zhe helped me in my chinese and maths
he so kind! xD

went back with sam and sers!

and here i am blogging ==
finally can play comp games :DD

2009-02-01T17:40:00.003+08:00

today didnt go church :x
slept all the way until 10 plus.
second one to wake up.
my dad went to work early.
so he is the first one D:

then played audition with nigel and nithya.
chionging to level 11 for my second acc! ><

then nigel made a mass msn conversation.
...
cant even see whats he talking about

got homework but dont feel like doing D:
sian chinese homework:
30 words xi zhi
2 chinese worksheet
Emaths:
complete maths 2! D:
Amaths:
redo test graph and complete maths2 ! D:

my head is gonna burst ><

you are like a disease that is trying to stop me from breathing.one minute without you. i feel like i am drowning. cause of you...i feel jealous when you talk to others instead of me.why cant you talk to me more often. instead of making me jealous.ihate being jealous. thats why i hate myself for being jealous.i know i am being selfish saying all this. but i cant control whats inside of me now. i really want you to hug me badly now.

2009-01-30T23:50:00.003+08:00

today i had dragon boating.
selected for the school nationals championship [i think?]
hmm..
tiring lo training.
but fun :D

then went home with
zhe rach abram and jia qi. ouh and ama too!
[sam went home with morris >.>]

walked all the way to dover mrt
while ama need go her grandma house
then rach abram jia qi take bus to dover halfway.
i walked with zhe to dover lo.
good exercise!
played audi [feeling sian]
haiz got alot homework [sian to do D:]

i feel weird. whats this feeling in my heart right now?
it felt like you were so close to me. but why cant i seem to have you?
i have this feelings that are undescribable.
i felt happy when i see you.
this feeling is unexplainable. :x

TEST

2009-01-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

so sad.
samantha never come sch today!
she must be dont want come sch de lo
cause got SS test
then make me kana angry with her
all my books in her locker >3

ouh ya SS test.
zzz
i at first dont want do de
i want to leave it blank
then suddenly i went to chiong
then write so much.
sure fail!

got chinese test.
aiya die le
fail fail
so hard~!

stayed back in school until 7 plus
do homework
so late
security guard chase us out of sch.
then went home with ying, zhe, nigel, zul, serena :3
one by one seperate ways
it was so fun to go back home with clowns today :3
zul and ying seperate from us first
then Zhe, Gel, Ser, Ole{me}[so cool all got E!]
all did staring competition o.o
laugh laugh laugh until non stop.

wouldnt it be cool that
you have a bunch of friends that live near you?
then we can go home together everytime
so cool lo.
omg thats my next wish! xD
i shall stop here and not drag any longer~!

TATA

2009-01-27T23:02:00.001+08:00

for the people out there
ding dong.
F.Y.I
me and nigel aren't together
just friends (:
good friends(:
and sam is still with morris
not with nigel
full stop.
please help stop rumours <3

2009-01-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

rachel kooi and her family came my house
today for dinner.
WITH MY GRANDMA! <3
cramping my mind with A maths homework
{yeah last min homework}
i am such a bad girl >.>

talking to sam <3
and nigel too
talking about english project
and maths homework~!
have to sleep early tomorrow
need go school early so can chiong A maths
and study for SS test!
i have the feeling that i am going to fail D:

RAWR

2009-01-27T01:45:00.002+08:00

who want come next next saturday
chiong arcade
eat
become fat
release stress

or is it next saturday? or this saturday? lawls
i dont know ==
contact nigel~!
F>ACTIVE PEOPLE THAT IS WILLING TO SPEND MONEY $w$

lol the spending money is just joking~!.
any people will do~!
more the merrier!
contact Nigel remember! not me!
i too lazy to arrange this kind of things~!

Ang Bao! :3

2009-01-26T22:41:00.003+08:00

just came home from my grandma's house <3
love her loads~!

total ang ba:17~! (for now hehe...)

nth to do now.
nth to post also.
went to my aunt's house
then go my grandma house.
eat
play psp
lie down on my past great granny's bed
(i miss her D:)
then play sims2 on psp
sms people
go home
bath
watch tv
then now talking to nigel on msn (:
then later maybe go sleep~!
snores..

TA TA~!

2009-01-26T16:57:00.002+08:00

came home from my aunt's house(dad side)
later going to my grandma house agaiN! <3
using comp now.
blogging
chatting in msn with nigel<3
got many hong bao~!

why must you changed so much?
we promised each other that
we would be together always.
you promised that you would
stay back with us after school
why did you say that
the whole 2F people changed?
all of think that you changed
not us.
why did you advoid us?
why didnt you even looked at me?
do you really hate us so much?
is it just cause me and sam are in the same class
but you arent?
you know how hurt both of us is?
we always hoped that you stayed back
with us.
but you always said no
"i am tired"
"i dont wanna stay in school"
"i wanna go home"
"i got alot of homework to do"
all those are excuses
why do you even bother to
use that friendship bag
when you are not even treat us
as best friends?
didnt we even bought a friendship necklace?
i bet you even forget all our friendship.
i cant say anymore.
but all i wanna say is.
i dont want to see our relationship destroyed.
i want back my old friend...

grandma i love you forever!

2009-01-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

went to grandma house today
for family reunion dinner (:
i love my grandma! <3
she is always supporting me
even though she forgets my birthday
which is a sad thing D:
but she is old thats why (:
and YAY! tomorrow i am going
to visit her again!
need to sleep !
before my dad sees me still
using the comp! ><

nigel i want play DDR with you~!
Tata~!

2008-12-28T20:11:00.002+08:00

a new year is coming soon! xD
i am not getting excited about it...
went for night cycling
haha
had alot of fun
didnt sleep much there too :D
RAWR
i feel like deleting my old post
and start afresh..
thats it for now :D