Wednesday, 15 July 2009 '

Hoois!
haven't been updating consistently (:
well! i am back (x

today sucked...
u know how it feels knowing that someone u love is sad.
while she tried to not let everyone knows that she is.
though she can't hide her sorrows away from me.
and i did not do anything to cheer her up.
all i did was to make sure that she knows i am not worrying.
cause you wouldn't wanna worry someone u love.
i tried my best though.
at the same time felt guilty.
knowing that she needs someone to be with her.
and i still could be cheerful infront of her.
shouldn't i be grabbing some guy's neck
and holding a knife infront of him?
or taking revenge of what someone done to her?
should i tell her to give up?
or.. or should i tell her to continue her fairytale world?
or slap her in the face and wake up [i won't]
or just lend her myself so that she could rumble out her disatisfactions.
or even cry her tears out.
or just be like a statue stoning staring at her ignoring her troubles?
i know she is grown up..
and she is not a person to show anyone her true feelings..
and she is not someone who is very open about herself.
but.. but she is yearning for someone to be there for her.
and i really want to be that person.
but i just don't know how to do it.
i was afraid that if i helped her...
i would only just makes matter worse...
i just wish for her to sleep peacefully every night.
and be happy of the decision she chose.
not to forget make sure she eats properly.
not eatin cup noodles every night.....

sleep well dearies..
make sure it is a good dream this time...
and please cry no more ):
remember i will always love u kays.

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