After reading emilyn's post about NCCsea ..
i have so many things to say about it..
but i dont know how to explain it.
after all this three years [to be] in ncc
i found that.. i actually liked it best when i am in sec 1.
trainings were tough.
yes it is
but it was all worthed it.
it turned out to build our teamwork better.
our cca was the youngest and smallest.
isnt it better that way?
so there wouldnt be any traditions or so that we have to follow.
and the smaller the group is
the better we are able to know each other.
the teachers were experienced and strict
but they are kind. nice. couraging. funny. lamers. jokers. understanding. unglam people. caring...
they always play with us.
our cca is always having alot of freedom.
they allowed us to have fun.
or rather they MADE SURE we had fun.
they are leaving us one by one....
how i missed them.
they are appearing lesser and lesser everyday.
stupid people.
i hate them for leaving us.
idiot craps.
feel like throwing darts D:[evil]
why must you leave *sobs*
everyday, every minute, every moment,
people are getting sick of ncc.
they going just for the sake of cca points.
and attendance.
not cause it is
FUNThe
BEST cca is still there?
is it true now...
is ncc still the best to me?
people may think if i am sick of ncc why not just quit.
people may think they dont need me in that cca.
pathetic cca.
i cant just quit now.
if we quit wont we disappoint mr heng?
then people will think if we are afraid of disappointing him
then why not we show him that ncc still can be better without him?
that i dont wanna do it. cause it is not true.
NCC is a BONDING cca?
no more.
i dont even know the sec ones.
except those who are under me during sec one orientation'09.
it was supposed to be a cca i looked forward to everyday.
why is everyone always wanting to be the ICs?
why is everyone ordering each other to do?
isnt there supposed not to be any shoutings? or ordering?
i feel like ncc has turned ugly.
people trying to be the best of best.
people trying to show the others that they are the best.
people trying to make people feel inferior.
people trying to make others feel small.
people trying to turn ncc into a strict cca.
people who are always shouting at others.
PEOPLE WHO ONLY KNOW HOW TO USE THEIR
FUCKING LOUD VOICE
PEOPLE WHO ARE TURING THIS WHOLE THING INTO ANOTHER CRAP.
crap man.
you know...after expressing everything in my mind.
i feel that..
one thing that makes this cca special is that because..
everyone WAS equal.
there wasnt any foot drill even though we are in a UG cca.
hahas....
now i wished cap alvin had changed it to a
"OUTDOOR ADVENTURE CLUB"
how cool.
then there wouldnt be any FALLING IN.
or even punishment for not falling in properly.
or for not able to fall in properly within 10 secs.
sighs.
why must they leave?
this cca is turning into crap.
i would do anything in the world just to go back to sec 1 cca times.
now i think...
the sec 4's this year were the ones that made us united in '07.
now just cause everything is changed.
and that they have O'levels.
they dont have the time for cca.
haiz.
we shared bunks.
secrets >[]<
food.
toothbrush? haha
water!!
shared punishments.
couraged each other.
and even gossiped O:
some people may think we are just some stupid people complaining about our lifes.
and we should grow up.
FYI, u are not me.
and u dont know how i feel.
u dont know what fun we HAD.
SIGHS
i am getting fucking angry now.
i should just calm down..
blogging really makes people express their true feelings.
lol it is dangerous. haha
Name: Oleander Lee Si Min.