Saturday, 14 February 2009 '

Feeling FUCKING stressed

cross country.
lunch.
walked round jurong point hundred times.
leg tired.
lazy to explain everything ==

PICTURES!

so dark D:

IT IS TRUE!

NITHYA!

OI!

SISTERS o.o?

shit. i feel so stupid now.i regretted taking that step.next time maybe i should just rely on my own.is it a misunderstanding?i hope so.i really do hope it is a misunderstanding.why must there be so many people confusing me everyday and everywhere i go.whats embarressment?why did it even appear in the fucking dictionary.why do i even bother about being embarressed when i know i dont even have a bloody face.i shouldnt have gave you that letter.now i regretted it alot.it would be better to just stay single till i am mentally prepared for another relationship.woudlnt it be better?

To someone: is best to stop loving me. as i cant change the fact that i dont love you anymore.ever since that accident happen. our relationship has a big downfall. just cause of one silly mistake you made.and that mistake reached my limit. even though you kept smsing me that you still loved me. but i dont anymore. do you know how much i was hurt when i have to always forgive you of your silly mistakes? i know people sometimes do make silly mistakes. but i cant take it anymore. as you have hurt me many times.so please stop saying that you still love me. it feels like you are adding stress to me. i have alot of stress in me now. my work, friend problems, and even my love life. i am not an expert in love. and neither will i be. so i am begging you. please stop it already. i dont love you anymore. i am sorry.i have to be direct this time.

i feel so agitated right now.i really need some one close to me. i feel very very hurt. i have been confused this few weeks. but no one knows.i hate myself.and i began to slash myself again.i tried not to do it. but it seems like i cant control my mind right now.it is quickly taking over me.where are my loved one when i need them. i always feel that they were always not around me. i always feel that...they would rather be with their own loved ones. i always feel lonely and always an outsider.everyday is just a normal day for me.i really want to solve this problem quick.it is affecting my lifestyle and most importantly my studies.i really wished that time will go back when i dont know you. then i will be saved. i wouldnt feel all this pain and anguish.do everyone really hate me that much?

i have decided to try to not love you or anyone else.
i will try....

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