Saturday, 28 February 2009 '

LOLed day

Damn sian can...
my fucking internet keep on got prob.
wtf
keep on disconnecting then connect again.
rawr~!!
then now using the one computer modem
wohohoho only i can use
my sister cannot~!

i want go japan badly!
it has been my fave top most want go country ><
sighs.
now recession so my mum dont let me go.
only can stay in singapore during wheel week.
then also cause my dad just booked a trip le
then dont want spend money again.
sighs.
i want hug samantha! random ==
i want hug something huge!
huge and soft.
maybe a huuuuge cinnamoroll/babytiger stuff toy!
the size of my mummy! [if my mum sees this i am dead]

Sunday, 22 February 2009 '

forget it

Forget it
the past is the past.
i shan't argue any longer.

Tuesday, 17 February 2009 '

LINKS

LINKS TO STICKERS~!
http://sleepywolfzzz.deviantart.com/art/dragon-sticker-112841217 [NIGEL'S DRAGON ><]

http://sleepywolfzzz.deviantart.com/art/2009-crazy-chibi-sticker-110225405 [NIGEL'S GUY WITH BALLOON?]

SORRY BUT MY SIS DIDNT TAKE A PIC OF AMA'S STICKER >[]<

COLOURED BY USING MARKERS 50 CENTS EACH?
SELF CUSTOMED STICKERS!
COLOURED OR NON COLOURED!.

Saturday, 14 February 2009 '

STICKERS

MY SIS IS CURRENTLY SELLING HAND MADE STICKERS.
IF YOU WANT EM CONTACT ME OR ANYTHING (:
I WILL POST THE PHOTOS OF THE STICKERS THAT SHE MADE FOR AMALINA AND NIGEL AND ME LATER ON :D

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Cam-whored at cross country[more pics]

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Feeling FUCKING stressed

cross country.
lunch.
walked round jurong point hundred times.
leg tired.
lazy to explain everything ==

PICTURES!

so dark D:


IT IS TRUE!


NITHYA!


OI!


SISTERS o.o?

shit. i feel so stupid now.i regretted taking that step.next time maybe i should just rely on my own.is it a misunderstanding?i hope so.i really do hope it is a misunderstanding.why must there be so many people confusing me everyday and everywhere i go.whats embarressment?why did it even appear in the fucking dictionary.why do i even bother about being embarressed when i know i dont even have a bloody face.i shouldnt have gave you that letter.now i regretted it alot.it would be better to just stay single till i am mentally prepared for another relationship.woudlnt it be better?

To someone: is best to stop loving me. as i cant change the fact that i dont love you anymore.ever since that accident happen. our relationship has a big downfall. just cause of one silly mistake you made.and that mistake reached my limit. even though you kept smsing me that you still loved me. but i dont anymore. do you know how much i was hurt when i have to always forgive you of your silly mistakes? i know people sometimes do make silly mistakes. but i cant take it anymore. as you have hurt me many times.so please stop saying that you still love me. it feels like you are adding stress to me. i have alot of stress in me now. my work, friend problems, and even my love life. i am not an expert in love. and neither will i be. so i am begging you. please stop it already. i dont love you anymore. i am sorry.i have to be direct this time.

i feel so agitated right now.i really need some one close to me. i feel very very hurt. i have been confused this few weeks. but no one knows.i hate myself.and i began to slash myself again.i tried not to do it. but it seems like i cant control my mind right now.it is quickly taking over me.where are my loved one when i need them. i always feel that they were always not around me. i always feel that...they would rather be with their own loved ones. i always feel lonely and always an outsider.everyday is just a normal day for me.i really want to solve this problem quick.it is affecting my lifestyle and most importantly my studies.i really wished that time will go back when i dont know you. then i will be saved. i wouldnt feel all this pain and anguish.do everyone really hate me that much?

i have decided to try to not love you or anyone else.
i will try....

Friday, 13 February 2009 '

TAGGED BY RACHEL YEO D:

Rules:It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question .
1. What is your name : OLEANDER
2. A four Letter Word : Opps
3. A boy's Name : Orlando Bloom xD
4. A girl's Name : Olivia! [my sis xD]
5. An occupation : Optician
6. A color : ORANGE
7. Something you'll wear : ORANGE shirts
8. A Sport: Olympics! :DD
9. A food : Oden [some Jap food]
10. Something found in the bathroom: Olive oil [for hair!]
11. A place : OSAKA :D
12. A reason for being late : OVERsleeping D:
13 IS MISSING o.o
14. A movie title : Omen o.o [OMG]
15. Something you drink : Orange Juice [Juuuuuuuuuuse]
16. A musical group : i know theres a band called Oleander! go check wiki!
17. An animal : Oxen
18. A street name : Oleander street o.o
19. A type of car : Olympus? [isit a camera brand? o.o]
20. The title of a song? : OMG [audition song]

ANYONE CAN DO THIS IF THEY ARE INTERESTED TO DO IT :D
[LAZY TO TAG]

Sunday, 8 February 2009 '

Joey's Tag

1.Who's the person who tagged you?
-Joey

2.Relationship between you and him/her?
-Friend.

3. 5 impresions of him/her?
1.Funny
2.OverHyper
3.Scary
4.Good Friend :D
5.Sweeeeet~!

4.If he/she become your enemy you will?
-I am too afraid to be her enemy o.o

5.what will you say to the person you like very much?
-eer. i am here not there!

6.A characteristic i like about myself?
-Mood Swings

7.A characteristic i hate about myself?
-Lemme think... not telling :x

8.For the person whom u hate, u say?
-" [silent] "

9.What do u feel abt urself?
-I feel normal for the pass 14 years

10.Your crush?
-Why the hell do i wanna tell you when i didnt even tell my mum :x

11.Most ideal person u wanna be?
-Nah it is impossible.

Pass this one to 10 ppl:
1. Nigel
2. Samantha
3. Amalina
4. Zhe Hui
5. Joy
6. Chien Yee
7. Siti
8. Emilyn
9. Mas
10. My sis! xD

13.If 5 and 7 were together?
- o.o. Lesbians?

14.who does 5 like?
-Ask her not me -x-

15.what colour does 9 like?
-Pink?

16.Say smth to 8.
-Talk more to me! not faiz! :x

17.Who is 2?
-My lover :x sorry morris

18.Talk abt 3.
-i wont talk to her. i will just smack her butt :DD

19.Who is 10's best friend?
- er er er.. samantha loh?

20.whose the sexiest among the 10?
- dont want be bias. ME! >.>

21 . What colour does 4 like?
- his has been wearing black. black?

22.Is 4 Single?
-aww he has always been :x

23. Your relationship with 1?
-OMG MAN. he is my CRAZY PARTNER

24. Are 5 & 6 best friends?
-they hardly talk? so NO!!

25. 9's nickname
-i dont call nicknames. ouh maybe i do :x

26. 7's surname?
-OMG i dont know lehhs. sry!

27. say smth to 4.
-SMILE! :D

28. say smth to help 10.
-Dont lag le

29. who does 1 admire?
- OOUUUHHHHHH.. *****

30 . Where does 1 live?
-Bukit Batok?

31. among 10 of them who u like?
-ALL! i am so selfish ==

32 . Say smth to 6 when u see him/her?
-Hi Hi Hi Hi!!

33. 10's spouse ?
-She is too pure to have a crush.

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MY FIRST WHITE HAIR

today when i was waiting for my god parents
to arrive with their lorry
so that they can fetch us to church
my dad found my first white hair >.>
i dont know whether should i be happy or sad.
.....


Ahhhhh.....


half black half white

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Fun Fun Fun :D

yesterday went out with
sam
nigel
zhe hui
nithya
had a fun time mans :D
especially the playground
zhe kept getting missing in daiso
and we had hard time finding for him.
next time remember to bring a dog leash ==
met up with nithya's sis :D
it was so sad that she and her sis had to leave first

let the pictures do the talking!

me and nithya. not clear D:


GEEKS! but i like it o.o


hand extra >.> who arh...


zhe got cut off >.>


nigel's mouth so big!


TOP OF THE WORLD!

Thursday, 5 February 2009 '

SLEPT DURING CHEM! xD

had three test today.
E maths
Physics
IED.
OMG
i nearly died from it.
E maths luckily zhe hui last min teach me!
[thanks so much!]
i really must thank zhe hui alot xD
he has been helping me when ever i have
troubles in my work.
especially chinese and maths.
Physics was OK.
IED was.. what is common equity?! >.>

felt drowsy during english.
nearly fainted
cause i ate my cough syrup [may cause drowsiness the sticker said]
i got permission to sleep through chemistry :D

stayed back to do IED test.
then saw zhe (:
he so ke lian all alone
so sad he kana pang sei by nigel D:
so pei him
haha no la
nigel got malay lessons.
again zhe helped me in my chinese and maths
he so kind! xD

went back with sam and sers!

and here i am blogging ==
finally can play comp games :DD

Sunday, 1 February 2009 '

today didnt go church :x
slept all the way until 10 plus.
second one to wake up.
my dad went to work early.
so he is the first one D:

then played audition with nigel and nithya.
chionging to level 11 for my second acc! ><

then nigel made a mass msn conversation.
...
cant even see whats he talking about

got homework but dont feel like doing D:
sian chinese homework:
30 words xi zhi
2 chinese worksheet
Emaths:
complete maths 2! D:
Amaths:
redo test graph and complete maths2 ! D:

my head is gonna burst ><

you are like a disease that is trying to stop me from breathing.one minute without you. i feel like i am drowning. cause of you...i feel jealous when you talk to others instead of me.why cant you talk to me more often. instead of making me jealous.ihate being jealous. thats why i hate myself for being jealous.i know i am being selfish saying all this. but i cant control whats inside of me now. i really want you to hug me badly now.